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August 22, 2003

I'm the new Berlin Wall, baby

I've been indulging my solo self these last few days. It doesn't even seem like I've been in my new place for over a week now. Even though I've done a lot of socializing, with my roommates mostly, I have been venturing out into the world alone a bit. Driving around, going to movies on my own, sitting on the beach. It's been pretty good. There are moments when I pine for home and all the people there, times when I can feel it tangibly, like an ache that I can't rub away. There's not much I can do in those moments, except pour myself a little whiskey and retreat to the solitude of my bed. It's hard to accept that life is continuing - as it inevitably does - without me there, and that I am now meant to forage for my own life down here. Having lots of time on my hands doesn't help much. My attempts to gain employment at local San Diego theatres seek to remedy that particular situation. I am going to keep my fingers crossed for another week.

I've been unable to post since I moved, perhaps because I was overly-stimulated, or maybe not stimulated enough, though I doubt that the latter is the case. Although this one's short, I can hope it's just the opening act.

Posted by kati at August 22, 2003 12:38 AM


i'll keep my fingers crossed for you too! i'm sorry i didn't get to see you before you left. =( but maybe i will see you when you're up in september. keep going to the beach. the beach is good.

Posted by: michele at August 22, 2003 10:53 AM

Once you get settled and more busy you'll find that there are whole days and then even weeks where you don't think about us... but that's no excuse for not writting, either blogs, emails or IM's. Life is still going on up here, but not completely independant of you. If you're free at all during your weekend here, schedule me a little of that time. I think the only time I'll be busy, rather than reading, is the afternoon on 9/13. I'm also sad I didn't get to see you before you left... although I have trouble thinking of you as "gone"... but I'll be even more sad if I miss you again ;)

Posted by: Kristina at August 22, 2003 09:02 PM

you won't miss me. promise.

Posted by: kati at August 22, 2003 10:22 PM


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